it might be ADD, or something else

song - Aalto ~ Resolution

song - Take That ~ Beautiful World
there are some songs that are permanently, sentimentally, soppily attached to a person, or a period of time. this is one of them.

I seem to have trouble focusing on stuff at hand, especially at work, even when deadlines are piling up. I seldom find the occasion to focus 100%, and put the full power of my brain to work. is it a lack of a challenge? or ADD? or just plain old indiscipline and procrastination?

also i'm glad that certain relationships were closed off to me. they are so happy that it will be impossible for them to survive a full-on blast of the depressingly hopeful version of reality i live in.